A messed up me.mean no harm nor disturbing

Salam...

hi guys!yesterday perhaps aku dah safely undergo my last test for this semester.HRM never give a torrid time so far and I hope the score will justify that I did not choose the wrong option.Anyway las nite were marvelous and I can't see it'll be the same scenario tonite.Anyway hope the moment will last forever.I realize a lot of people went missing and perhaps it is not in their blood to mix up with the community and get the joy out of it.Perhaps they prefer to live as a lone ranger or loser.

Hectic week is ahead.For the 2nd time in my life I really hate a group project.It is not because I need to work depend on the others part but the needless urgency put by the others on the work.I think a year work as a team wont really work to create the chemistry.I'm suffering from other people judgement on somebody and put others under pressure.Anyway you're loser sucker.Just take time and don't push other too hard.Gosh I think I had write too far criticizing people.

I don't have any other commitment on rugby since last week and my brain can be fairly said as productive.For more than almost a 100 days being a student of UTP I had never before been this productive.After all congratulation for me.A lot of work need to be done for the next two week.A day off today and could spend my night doing some work before a journey too search for clothing from bundle tomorrow.Since that I dont have too much money for a new cloth,bundle provide me with a lot of option.Hope I can find a very nice and cheap clothing for the dinner.

not much to be write this time.we end here.tata~~

Salam...

Post ni mark my 200th post for my blog.Our rugby journey face an abrupt end.It should have a better ending if all of the parties act accordingly and not blind and blatantly.Playing rugby never been this life threatening like this.Anyway possibility of a rematch is undecided but we can rule it out for the moment.Perhaps we'll fight for 3rd-4th play-off this coming weekend.However I want to thanks all of my teammates for their commitment and sacrifice.Maybe the curse of having another sem left stop Jan06 this time.

Anyway on 30th April there'll be inter course futsal for Jan06.I had sent an invitation through fb and more than half dozen of people already cannot make it.What a pity because this might one of the most interesting gathering that might happen in our history.Anyway for anyone whom interested to play just leave a message to your program representative.Just check the event on fb for program representative.No fb?no problem coz you can refer to pa'id gtalk status.Anyway both guys and girls futsal will be held and I'm hoping for a full participation from available Jan06.

Anyway at 11am I'll have CA test followed by EIS at night.Almost done with CA revision but not with EIS.Perhaps I need to pray a lot that the test will be very-very easy coz I'm not prepared.A lot of people will have presentation this week and next week.Work hard for the future guys.all the best.See you this Friday nite.

Salam...

Syukur alhmadulillah aku masih bernafas today.Bangun tak berapa awal tapi ada enough time tuk siapkn bekpes roti paratha and tuna in curry along a big gulp of Nescafe Gold.A bad combination I guest but the aroma of the Nescafe was the most magnificent.Today it marks my 12th week in UTP for this semester.However life more or less is the same.UTP pun makin sesak and makin sibuk.

Anyway las nite ada euphonious.One of the entertainment event yang aku tak penah jejak kaki kat UTP nih.Tiket dah beli tapi my brothers sume pun busy.So aku spend almost an hours tuk bersembang kosong dengan cik figo las nite.Anyway aku xpat pegi maybe sebab ALLAH memang tak nak bagi kot.Aku nak pegi sebab nak try tengok environment dalam tu camne and try reflect dengan guideline dalam flyers (size A4) yang pihak bertanggungjawab edarkan semalam.

Anyway cubaan aku tak kesampaian.Untuk yang dipihak bertanggunjawab jangan lak pikir cubaan aku nak reflect as menentang korang ek.Aku pun ilmu agama cukupla sekadar guide aku dari wat kacau bilau n rosakkan idup orang.However aku masih fail untuk remove my suspicious of coincidence of event each time ada event hiburan anjuran pelajar kebiasaan.This thing begin long ago when I'm a part of Symphonyfest.Memorizing is not the best part of me but your effort to tormenting our event will never dissapear.Somehow I'm not seeking for revenge coz it'll be fool to act on people whom seems to conquer most of the powerful organization in UTP.

Rumors and trash talking keep on spreading till last evening.From my understanding and point of view, people is fighting fire with fire. To whom who might concern please don't fight with fire.You're ego.Please try and have an insight on the committee and participant way of life and thinking.If they're stubborn and broken,being stubborn wont bring any good.I'm a 50-50 kind of people.But for most of the time it is hated that propel me from backing up whom who fight for the right because it is done on a wrong way and in a way that coz hatred.From years of observation, they never put a proper approach to soften the stubborn heart.Often "coincidence" event were made as a symbol of rebel.

Anyway yesterday Gen06 were unfortunately kick out by Facebook FC.On another end Azzuri emerged victorious.Just now I have a walk to support TATA06 and they lost their footing after a hard fought 2nd half.Tomorrow I'll be playing my 3rd semi-finals in my 3rd times playing in Perak Rugby Premier League.From my point of view the chance for us to make it to the finals is still there but it is a slight chance.Nothing as costly mistake was there because every mistake will be costly.Opponents will a tough nut to crack and only discipline and tactical play will be beneficial.I'm praying for the best and hope I'm not gonna be the 3rd of Jan06 in this week to end up at semis.However each thing happen came along with underlying reason.Perhaps workload is there waiting for us.Final exam also just around the corner.

1st draft of exam timetable already released yesterday.My exam will end on 2nd June 2010.A short holiday at hometown before going back to UTP to work hard for fyp I think.Anyway I'm wishing all the best to all my colleagues. ICT n BIS students will face their final exam for this degree program.Soon they'll be working,make some saving and get married.After all, all the best.I'll be attending your reception if I'm still breathing.We will miss you all.Time is too short here in UTP.Keep going forward in whatever field you're in.

salam guys...

kali nih aku nak seru semua ke graduation/orang tua-tua/orang final year dinner.mai la ramai-ramai kite meriahkan majlis ini.details adalah seperti berikut

tarikh: 8 mei 2010

tempat: clearwater sanctuary

bayaran: rm45

tema: warna hitam

pakaian: fesyen seperti diatas amat dialu-alukan oleh aku.please jangan theme colour digunakan untuk stokin,sunglasses,undergarment,cap n etc

peserta: pelajar-pelakar tahun akhir dari batch jan06.

Salam....

As-anyone-who-follow-me know,blog ak da serupe tapak perkuburan lately.Senyap,sunyi and sepi.Once in a while klo ad orang visit and left any comment ada la sikit respon dari meja pengarang.At the moment hampir semua budak UTP dibeban,terbeban dan bebal dengan kondisi beban kerja yang amazing.This situation is the most awesome thing that I've never thought being a final year student.Anyway tak maw mengeluh sebab it does not change the past and on going but it do change the future.

Lately jugak pihak intelligence mendedahkan akan adanya makan-makan batch.Makan-makan ni bukan self-enroll-erotic-party seperti mana aku pernah anjurkan.Official.Majlis makan-makan ini akan less likely kelihatan seperti parti sosej anjuran pihak bertanggungjawab setahun yang lalu.Kendatipun (men lenjan je vocab) aku bukan penganjur tapi aku menyeru semua untuk pergi.Mari kita makan dengan gembira beramai-ramai.Harap kos tidak melampau dan less formal scenario.Aku tak pretty sure tapi aku rase majoriti guys akan setuju untuk kos rendah dan tema yang lebih selamba.

Air terjun merupakan destinasi yang aku cari-cari buat masa ini.Untuk aper?untuk merendek?untuk barbeku?untuk fotografi?aaaaaa,itu yang kite tak taw lagi.Anyway hectic life kat UTP patut dilupakan dengan sesi sukaria dan beristirehat (bukan ber-isteri-rehat).Wiken-wiken yang dihabiskan dibilik dengan berusaha membuat kerja memang tak bagus.Aku tak suka dengan teori produktiviti under kapitalis.Aku gak takkan spend 90% of my life to work.Lets have a better work-life balance and work as negara maju.Anyway aku tetap believe most of us memang dah diterapkan dengan ideologi kerja untuk duit dan bukan mencari kepuasan hidup dalam kerja.

Anyway takder konklusi coz masih mencari konklusi.Life so-so and until this weekend ati tak tenang coz still ada perak league rugby untuk aku mainkan.Ingatkan dis weekend dah habis.Time is running out.Itu situasi untuk semua aku rasa.Untuk yang bakal grad time is running out as a student.Untuk yang seangkatan dengan aku time is running behind us sebab die rase panjang lagi mase untuk struggle kat UTP nih.Untuk yang telah menerima last or 2nd last scholar,da dapat gaji besau jangan lupe kawan-kawan.Da dapat jodoh pun jangan lupa kawan-kawan.Selamat berjaya untuk semua Jan06 dan kawan-kawan seangkatan.

Elo eberibodi.Dah lame aku tinggalkan blog yang suram ini.Hidup tahun akhir bukan seindah yang disangka.Somehow aku masih mampu untuk beriadah dipetang hari dan masak bersama LOI dimalam hari.Workload memang awesome ditahun akhir.I wish I'm really doing something else and not chemical engineering.It sucks the meaning of life all the time.

As usual petang aku kepadang UTP.Padang yang memang banyak berubah compared to January 2006 when kita mula masuk.Back then jatuh time training is a disaster.Anyway tak nak cerita pasal padang.On the way kepadang sebab dah lambat aku pun jog ler slow n steady dengan bola ragbi putih oren.Then datang Anwar Bobo berbasikal (bukan sedara Anuar Manan aku rase) menyapa dari belakang.Seperti biasa isu dibicarakan adalah tekanan dan kekuciwaan disaat akhir ini.

Bobo seorang yang meminati bisnes related programme somehow a bit keciwa dengan apa yang ditawarkan dalam BIS.Aku yang korang sedia tahu amik Chemical Engineering sebab aku tak suka circuit and aku ingat tak banyak theori fizik dalam program ni.Sembang kami lebih menjurus future.Bobo nak bukak bisnes ikan keli dengan Pak Cik Kord-I.Tatkala ini aku raso nanti balik kampung tanam ubi kayu and jago dusun dian.Awesome la aku rase keje cmtuh.Especially kalau kite ada degree.Tapi aku rase suku sakat aku yang materialistik mesti kata aku gila.Sama macam pesimis diorang tengok kerjaya perguruan.Maybe sebab parents aku tak pakai kete menjalar tapi sekadar kete jimat minyak.

Anyway last wednesday mase kelas CA Doc. Mat ada cakap M'sian mostly not excluding any fields tak ubah macam buruh kasar.90% of times,energy and life devoted to works and 10% more for every-other-things.Semua pun aku rasa sebab dasar kapitalis yang mengagungkan something called as productivity.Maybe this is what happen back then masa aku intern.Younger generation of worker less likely to search for work-life balance.Perhaps until they lost something that very much important and precious.Anyway the way we were working are too far from life style kat negara maju.Perhaps a decade more as developing country.However ingat money is not everything.I find that my parents live a good life in the village and they never crave for extra income coz there is balance in their life.

Dr. Rohani ada cerita die interview budak untuk undergoing Edu Camp.She said that there're a lot of high flyers yang succumb under pressure.Anyway PETRONAS or UTP sohuld realize that majority yang not succumb tuh memang kaki kencing.Masuk UTP and turn out as mediocre.Kepala otak penuh macam-macam nak cakap.Confident and creativity lebih di-trigger at that situation.Most of the time everything is kept at bay.Hibernate jer sume talent.Anyway only thing that pull out their interest baru die fork out a lot of effort.It's like camne I love rugby instead of fall in love.Aku admit learning grab a max of 40% je commitment aku.At least 50% on rugby and remaining in others.Patut mengaji lebey kurang jer kan.

Anyway sekarang rutin harian tido lewat even though malam ni tak panas mane.Nescafe gold almost every night and sometimes soul searching.Aku cuba stabilize everything.Buat kerja and my life.Sorry aku bukan workaholic or studyholic coz aku tenang.tenang seperti biasa.Aku tak der produktiviti untuk dapat bonus.Aku tak suke exam oriented evaluation.Banyak mende aku nak maki hamun or other word maybe aku regret decision masuk UTP dlu.Perhaps my sis should be given the oppurtunity to play her trade here.However she's now far more successful than me.All the best for me.my firends and my siblings.Life aren't that great but there's still tomorrow.

Salam...

Blog aku dah confirm or 100% being left for the past couple of weeks.I'm not really into blogging lately because there are massacre in every part of me.To make matter worst is reading an ethnic-centric book reflecting of 13th may 1969 ethnic confrontation.Let alone the author to potray his view and frustration on government in the book.Anyway I could not agree more on his view regarding to the DEB only really benefit people at a certain level.

Anyway this morning aku tak blog-walking because non of the posting capture my attention.Then I move to online news.There is a news in the sport section did capture my attention which is Sukma to be held annually rather than once in two years.The 13th edition will be the beginning of an annual Sukma.KBS will demolish mini olympics.The reason they change the format because the want to ensure that all athlete to maintain their form which I can't see the relevant.Wasn't it better to do it once in 2 years so that there will be significant improvement on scouted athletes from age-level competition?

From wiki I noted that all except Kelantan and Perlis had or will be the host for Sukma.Hosting is a really big thing.A lot of money required to built stadium.A large chunck of money will be allocated on the accomodation and transportation of athlete and official.In conclusion Sukma is time and money consuming.Over the years I can see that most of stadium in the host state left without much benefit to the surrounding community.Certain sports venue such as swimming and bowling were opened to public.The others whether being left to rotten or being use once in a while for competition which means high maintainance cost for once in a while event.

Sukam for sports development or Sukma for state income?From my point of view Sukma give more benefit on economy.Malaysian world class athlete didn't need this type of competition.They need training and competition at the top level rather than national level.What will benefit the state economy?Sukma more or less give the oppurtunity for the state to market their tourist attraction to the participant and officials.Good transportation and accomodation will attract them to come back later to have a holiday with their family. Bussiness oppurtunity is unlimited.Athlete and official buying souveniers for their friends and family.

For years we had seen there is no significant in most of sports in Malaysia.Football only achieve something called consistency since past couple of years.There are rise of athlete from pool event and other than that I can say it is invisible.KBS are making too much irrelevant decision I in my opinion.From my point of view a national circuit is better.Once in 2 months for the core sports.Each state can only be a host for not more than 2 or three sports.@-3 months will give sufficient times for athlete to recover from injury,getting fit and improve their games.This for me is more practical.It also open up oppurtunity for national coaches to do the scouting by monitoring the athelete performance rather than keep on picking those who were selected 5 years ago for international competition.

After all there should be a change on the regular plan and ideology in the KBS.Aren't they try to take a different approach.There should be less corruption in money management so that more money allocated on development of athlete.Malaysia sports are not going anywhere unless there is significant change on how scouting and performance were monitored.Consistent performer at international stage should remain there.Once in a while rising youngster should be given a run against the well established senior.

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