A messed up me.mean no harm nor disturbing

Salam

untuk sem ni aku amik Human Resource Management

aku tak sure celah mana hati aku or otak yang terbuka nak amik subjek ni.However so far aku tak lagi nak regret decision tu.

So far aku dah belajar yang for a company to move forward or from average company or organization into a high flyer, they'll need the right person.

The first thing yang come to my brain after learning this thing is am i at the right programe?aku tak sure whether this thing is weird or not but i'm pretty sure it is not because of internal conflict.on thing i realize it i'm not being at my fullblast.afterall aku bukan nak mourning result yo-yo aku because it is my own fault.

after one of the suck-a** relationship with my S* during internship,i just wondering how bad it'll be for me if i'm working in the organization.i'm not sharing the same work-like-you'll for a thousand years.i'm raring to go for a happy and healthy life.i'm more than happy if the working culture comes with exercise after office rather than working extra hours.however i know it is a culture developed to show how dedicated you to work and ensuring your place is safe for another year instead of being kicked out of the organization.

whom who were in their final year already talking about their future after the ability test (pretty sure it doesn't include any health test or fitness).i think it is not too early for me to talk about the future.i've already made up my mind that i don't think working culture and environment likes PPM will please me.in fact the only thing that please me is there's fitness+weight training room provided.sometimes it makes me wonder am i suppose to take sports science instead of engineering.life is full of mystery.

anyway after evaluating the current scenario which might last for another year or two, i'm really thinking of education as my priority.at the same time i might join courses as aerobic instructor and fitness instructor which will open a chance of part-time job.anyway engineering is not my priority anymore.i want to venture into field that provided me some 'life'.i'm more or less similar to my father.it is just he likes gardening and i like sports.most of the time i'm praying that i will divert far away from this life-sucking occupation as a profesional.anyway the 10 years contract is long enough to empty out my pocket for most of my life i think.