A messed up me.mean no harm nor disturbing

salam

i've been at home since yesterday.last night i didn't join the other for dinner together.i hope one day i can make amend for that.anyway i'm not escaping because i want to save or other reason but i had to be at home because my family's heading for dinner at somewhere else.my mom's said it was compulsory.i'm very sorry.

today is saturday.for the first time in almost 5 years i had the oppurtunity to go to open house.at the moment i had already go to 3 houses.my stomach is full plus in the morning i've had already eat a lot.each house offer variety of food.they're traditional and modern menu.i have satay, kue tiow,rendang and many other food.it taste good but i need to control the amount of food i consume.

however,despite all the delicacies,i still have a letdown.i didn't spent enough time with someone.i know it's not my demand or what so ever but it is just the selfish in me make me feel ungrateful.to make matter worse i also feel like i'm guilty because regularly we'll spend time even through this eletronic world quite sometimes during the weekend.i know i can have everything but it seems like i'm selfish.i can opted not to go to the open house and be with her.somehoe there's some kind of enthusiast or attraction that make me want to go to open house.what a poor man.i still can find sometimes with her but i need to sacrifice something.owh life there're a lot of turn without specific u-turn.