A messed up me.mean no harm nor disturbing

Elo eberibodi.Dah lame aku tinggalkan blog yang suram ini.Hidup tahun akhir bukan seindah yang disangka.Somehow aku masih mampu untuk beriadah dipetang hari dan masak bersama LOI dimalam hari.Workload memang awesome ditahun akhir.I wish I'm really doing something else and not chemical engineering.It sucks the meaning of life all the time.

As usual petang aku kepadang UTP.Padang yang memang banyak berubah compared to January 2006 when kita mula masuk.Back then jatuh time training is a disaster.Anyway tak nak cerita pasal padang.On the way kepadang sebab dah lambat aku pun jog ler slow n steady dengan bola ragbi putih oren.Then datang Anwar Bobo berbasikal (bukan sedara Anuar Manan aku rase) menyapa dari belakang.Seperti biasa isu dibicarakan adalah tekanan dan kekuciwaan disaat akhir ini.

Bobo seorang yang meminati bisnes related programme somehow a bit keciwa dengan apa yang ditawarkan dalam BIS.Aku yang korang sedia tahu amik Chemical Engineering sebab aku tak suka circuit and aku ingat tak banyak theori fizik dalam program ni.Sembang kami lebih menjurus future.Bobo nak bukak bisnes ikan keli dengan Pak Cik Kord-I.Tatkala ini aku raso nanti balik kampung tanam ubi kayu and jago dusun dian.Awesome la aku rase keje cmtuh.Especially kalau kite ada degree.Tapi aku rase suku sakat aku yang materialistik mesti kata aku gila.Sama macam pesimis diorang tengok kerjaya perguruan.Maybe sebab parents aku tak pakai kete menjalar tapi sekadar kete jimat minyak.

Anyway last wednesday mase kelas CA Doc. Mat ada cakap M'sian mostly not excluding any fields tak ubah macam buruh kasar.90% of times,energy and life devoted to works and 10% more for every-other-things.Semua pun aku rasa sebab dasar kapitalis yang mengagungkan something called as productivity.Maybe this is what happen back then masa aku intern.Younger generation of worker less likely to search for work-life balance.Perhaps until they lost something that very much important and precious.Anyway the way we were working are too far from life style kat negara maju.Perhaps a decade more as developing country.However ingat money is not everything.I find that my parents live a good life in the village and they never crave for extra income coz there is balance in their life.

Dr. Rohani ada cerita die interview budak untuk undergoing Edu Camp.She said that there're a lot of high flyers yang succumb under pressure.Anyway PETRONAS or UTP sohuld realize that majority yang not succumb tuh memang kaki kencing.Masuk UTP and turn out as mediocre.Kepala otak penuh macam-macam nak cakap.Confident and creativity lebih di-trigger at that situation.Most of the time everything is kept at bay.Hibernate jer sume talent.Anyway only thing that pull out their interest baru die fork out a lot of effort.It's like camne I love rugby instead of fall in love.Aku admit learning grab a max of 40% je commitment aku.At least 50% on rugby and remaining in others.Patut mengaji lebey kurang jer kan.

Anyway sekarang rutin harian tido lewat even though malam ni tak panas mane.Nescafe gold almost every night and sometimes soul searching.Aku cuba stabilize everything.Buat kerja and my life.Sorry aku bukan workaholic or studyholic coz aku tenang.tenang seperti biasa.Aku tak der produktiviti untuk dapat bonus.Aku tak suke exam oriented evaluation.Banyak mende aku nak maki hamun or other word maybe aku regret decision masuk UTP dlu.Perhaps my sis should be given the oppurtunity to play her trade here.However she's now far more successful than me.All the best for me.my firends and my siblings.Life aren't that great but there's still tomorrow.